It all seems still rather confusing to me... 
no, *I* just made it complicated - it really is quite easy 
just two questions... 
Just to let everyone know I haven't forgotten 

my attempt to somehow get a grasp on these events. 
so far i can only answer, 
it was not something that i was informed about.. 
it was something for which they have an agenda 

which i am not  (for some, i guess uncertain reason) privy to or what? ... 
i didn't hear about the meeting.... 
I am good at missing announcements. 
i don't know at all the nature or reason 

(and i still don't quite "get it") 
maybe i'm just not as insightful as others, i don't know... 
I'm still at a loss to respond 
it gives me a more full sense. 

for the moment i still feel a bit embarassed and confused 
still i'm not the only one 
put in an embarassing and difficult postition 
so: Why did you go really? 
My other question is: 
Why do I care? 
Sounds very 'noodley'. 

random aside: for some reason where I'd expect to see an apostrophe (like in don't), I'm seeing a question mark. Most odd.